Saturday, December 30, 2006

Who Am I?

Ok -- I had a comment that said that I need to do a personal inventory of myself. Wow -- a summation of who I am? I have said lots about who I am in this blog, but never summed it up. I guess that one song might sum it up that is sung by Meredith Brooks:


BITCH
I hate the world today
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one

Chorus:
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
So take me as I am
This may mean
You'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing

Chorus
Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me

Chorus
I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way


Hmmmmmmmmmmmm -- that's me tongue in cheek responses to questions about who I really am. A personal inventory -- it's scary Steve but thanks for getting me to thinking about it. Let me put it on paper first - but tongue in cheek aside -- a lot of the words to that song ring true.

Thanks for the advice.
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Here's a blog post that touched me deeply. Go read Charmin' Just Charmin' he has two posts today in particular -- 1) Anniversary Pizza and 2) Forty three years ago.

Ain't they cute.

2 comments:

GUYK said...

Hi, thanks for the link..and I appreciate the kind words

Tired of "Drama Queen" said...

I don't like you calling yourself a bitch. It is such a negative word. AND you are not one. I wish you'd stop.

American Heritage Dictionary - bitch (bĭch)

noun

1. A female canine animal, especially a dog.

2. Offensive:
a. A woman considered to be spiteful or overbearing.
b. A lewd woman.
c. A man considered to be weak or contemptible.

3. Slang: A complaint.

4. Slang: Something very unpleasant or difficult.

AND as far as the acronym "BITCH" goes, Being in Total Control of Herself.........

You really can't define yourself that way because you don't have control over yourself (yes, you are working hard on it) but as long as he's there continuing to do what he's doing it won't happen. He'll take you back down every time you think you are getting up!!! It's that old vicious cycle thing. Up, down, up, down, it gets so tiresome.

Okay, here's another one for you to think about, "WIFE," means to Wash, Iron, Fetch, Etc.

I was a WIFE once. I don't consider myself to be a BITCH - because truth is, no one has total control over herself or himself. Especially if you have children, total control - nah, it'll never happen.

But hey - I am a survivor. And that's a good thing.

xoxoxoxoxox
Your Big Sister

Oh, do you like my new name? Tired of "Drama Queen" - I'm working on different name ideas.