Just Rambling

Blood is thicker than water, but alcohol is a blood thinner. ~me

Just thought I'd say that... thinking off the "top of my head."
Saturday - Sober
Sunday - Sober
Monday - Drunk
Tuesday - Hangover
Wednesday - Been Drinking...

IDEA -- I need to make a meter for this blog that shows the status for the day -- Sober, Drunk, High, Drinking, or Hangover. I think I'll work on it and put it in the title bar -- that might be cute.

J**** and I sat down and talked a tiny bit -- hey that's big -- last night.

• He said he had called and asked M***** S******** to sponsor him in AA. Sorry, but I'm a skeptic and considering the choice of sponsor and the fact that he lives in a different county, I just don't see this "panning out." Hope he proves me wrong.
• He said that he agreed that there is more that both of us can do around the home, etc. I was smarter this time -- I said that we've both been slacking on our duties around the house and need to do better.
• He agreed so we set our goals for today. Me -- I will work up a draft budget and clean the middle stairs. His goal for today is to unclog the upstairs bathroom sink (yuck) and clean up all the trash around for tomorrow's pickup. (He failed his goals -- go figure)

Baby steps.

I love my Prozac.

We all had dental and eye doctor appointments yesterday. I need glasses for working on the computer, J**** needs glasses because he can't see far off, and G***** will need glasses too. J**** needs $1,500 worth of dental work and G***** has two tiny cavities where "sugarbugs" are trying to make a home, and I need to see a joint specialist for my TMJ.

School has started today. Two kids off to school - they were so grown-up. Hope Daddy doesn't use this as an excuse to drink. His excuse on Monday was that his baby girl was going to school, he was hot, tired, and nobody was home because we were at the school function. Well dumb*ss you could have went with us... Excuses suck.

Got home from work early today to see girls get off of school bus and he was home and drunken neighbor was here.

I really need to start working on my own recovery because this is going nowhere and this family is just spinning its wheels. Anyway -- He was not just right, told me drunken neighbor had come over of own accord, but we have Vonage and you can look on the computer and see who called etc... J**** called drunken neighbor. I leave to go get son and get home -- it's worse, vodka I'd say. I pour out what is left because I just don't want to deal with it and then he says his Uncle had called and had to see him. J**** has no license, I know Uncle C and he wouldn't want J**** to attempt to drive. So LIAR. Anyway, I hide my van keys and get his keys away from him, because the big dufus was going to drive his vehicle with NO TAGS!!!!! Duh -- sometimes I think he huffed way too much paint as a kid and killed way too many brain cells..

So he's not here -- he called my cousin S**** to come and get him to go buy POT and we only have 7 bucks to our name until Friday. Getting it on front. No Uncle C direly needing him. Just wanting to get high.

He sucks.

My house is messy again, I'm broke,and did I say? -- He sucks.